back. (:

mmm. i love this.
i feel so freed; writing.
i don't know what made me stop, but i'm coming back.
i've missed it more than i thought possible.
i can be me again. (:
so i was looking at my older posts, and i saw one where i wrote about people, without saying who they are. doing it again. (:
know who you are?


1. Who are you and what are you trying to be? Another little town scandal? I don't have time for your bullshit and lying.

2. I love you; that's it, that's all. You treat me like shit, and I just love you more and more. It's messed up; I hate it. But the heart does funny things.

3. I'm sorry for what the future will bring; I know it won't be fair to you. You deserve better than this.

4. Telling you my secrets and helping you with those problems has shown me that I can trust again. I can care again. Maybe you'll hurt me later on, but I'm willing to take that risk. I just hope its worth it. This is the beginning of what seems to be a beautiful friendship.

5. UGHH! FJALKJLJ. I miss you more than I knew. You come in and out of my life and knowing I'll be seeing you soon, I'm scared that you won't care like you used to.

6. I'm sorry. I'm so so so so sorry. I don't know what else to say. You know I love you with all of my heart, I just want to make it better. Please come back to "planet earth" as your old self soon. I miss you terribly.

7. You're still my best friend; just because we don't talk every single day, doesn't change a thing. You have a heart of gold; polish it, let it shine again. Better days are coming soon.

8. I don't know about you yet. Who are you? What are you about? Where is this going?

9. Do you care as much as you say you do? I don't think you do. Sometime, just once please, prove it.

10. Come back into my life. I need you, now more than ever. You were supposed to love me; thats what people do. Come back and don't ever leave.

11. I can't stand you sometimes. There are days I feel like slapping you across the face. But friendships like this... they last through tough times. I'm not going to give up on you just yet.

12. When are you going to wake up and realize that life is beautiful?

13. You based my life on lies; you tried to make me ignorant. And you know what? I honestly, truly hate you for it.

14. It's nice to see your name on my cell phone screen. (: especially with nice messages, hoping i'm having a wonderful day.

15. You make me smile. I don't know how. Maybe you're such a goon that its contagious. You're probably the biggest sweetheart I know. (:

16. Theres a great possibility that you have the kindest soul I have ever met. You're really fun and really sweet; I hope you realize that you're more than what your surface first showed me. I think I'm still underestimating you, but only time will tell. Thank you for not having shallow conversation. Thank you for making me think.

17. When you decide that I'm more important than you said, come back, apologize, and I promise to forgive you. I miss you so much.

18. You say we'll get married someday. You say it'd be the perfect life. You say you'll give me everything I ever dream of. You say you can make me happy. I say, maybe you're right.

19. Please please please take care of yourself. I don't want to lose you now.

20. Thanks for making me laugh, continuously. Thanks for letting me be my crazy, psychotic self. And thanks for making fun of me for it. We've had a great run. A future with you as my friend sound marvelous.

21. Have you realized yet that we were destined to be best friends until time is over? Have you realized that we are one soul; two bodies? Have you realized that no matter how many fights we get into, you will always come before anyone else? I'd drive across the world for you.

22. Look, you need to realize that I'm not a toy. Please don't leave me by the side of the road, deserted and alone. I still love you like I always have.

23. You've lied for long enough, don't you think?

I'll be back soon.
<3


I'm sorry for every word I can't find the strength to say.