Just like I found you,
I may lose you.
In a month.
To a pretty house.
In the city that lives forever.
To a college.
Where no one knows your name.

No one there will know you quite like me.
Like the sigh you make when you're tired.
Or the way the littlest comments make your baby blue eyes sparkle.
Or how you burn your necklaces before you wear them so they don't itch.
Or how your music is everything to you.
Or how easily you can put a smile on a face.
Or how when i have to go, you tackle me & beg me not to leave.

I want to tackle you & beg you not to leave.

Even though you tell me you'll take me with you,
reality is, you can't.
But.
You'll be taking the most important part of me.
My heart.

You see, I gave it to you.
Did you even notice?
Did you see me place it in your hands?

I hope my picture isn't easily replaced on the screen.
I hope that you'll miss me like I'll miss you.
I hope that you'll be happy & have great friends.

But mostly, I hope you don't have to leave.

I just got you.
How could I ever bear to lose you?

But how could I ever say these things aloud?
I can't.
The pain; the tears; it would be too much.

And there's something I left out.
And I think you may know it already,
so I don't think I'll say it.
Because saying it makes it real and visible and makes me weak.
Do you know?

So here's what I'll tell you.

"It'll be fun. You'll be okay. Maybe it's fate. Maybe it's what's written for you.
This is your chance to start over, and I know it's scary, but thrilling, too.
You're tough. And you're kind. And people want to be friends with you.
You can do it. I believe in you. Plus, the house is beautiful."

Then again,
so is love.




"Love of mine some day you will die,
But I'll be close behind.
I'll follow you into the dark.
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white.
Just our hands clasped so tight,
Waiting for the hint of a spark.
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied -
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs.
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks,
Then I'll follow you into the dark."