i forgot to take off the necklace you gave me
when i showered yesterday.
and it felt like a dead weight around my neck.
every thought that came and went
was just another thing i wanted to say to you.

i hate you.
i hate how you can't even acknowledge i'm alive right now.
i hate how when i need you most, you turn your back.
i hate how i lose my appetite when you say the things you do.
i hate how i can't stand the way i try to make you notice me.
i hate how you say you'll call, but you never do.
i hate how everytime i hear your name, i want to cry.
i hate how every song i hear is just another song that screams your name.
i hate how i can't look at my phone, scared you won't have answered.
i hate how i can't even really hate you.

and most of all.
i hate that you "love" me.
because love isn't fair.
and you break promises.






i know you loved me. you said & you wrote it down.